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J-Popcon for the weekend!  
11:14am 02/11/2007
 
 
Dazza Angel
Eee! I'm soo excited!

In about 2 hours I'll be on a train heading for an anime con for the weekend! I've been looking forward to this since we went to J-popcon last year... Yay!

It was soo much fun last year and I'm sure it's gonna be fun this year too!
I'm gonna bring my boys (BJD Dolls. I have five of them :D) and I'm going to cosplay!
I'll be cosplaying a character of my own creation.
http://img.photobucket.com/albums/0903/Dazza/MiramisMirasana.jpg
His name is Miramis. He's the red haired one in the picture. His twin brother is named Mirasana. He's the black haired one.
So I've spent the last week sewing and trying to get everything ready. I even sewed a pair of cat ears and a tail on one of my boys... He's not supposed to be a cat boy but he will be for the weekend.

So yeah. I'm very excited about going... I soo hope my phone is going to work though... I know she might not get on... But in case she does... I want to be able to talk to her... So MSN better work on my phone... *Pokes at it* Noo messing up on me this time... please...?
I've also been having some problems with the batteries for my camara... I hope it works... I really want to get some pictures this year.

I'm also looking forward to just getting away from home for a while... Just getting to be somewhere else for a little bit. Only one thing could be better than this... and I'm still hoping I can get to do that soon.

For now though... I'm gonna get done so I'm sure I got everything packed and ready. Wee!
mood: excited excited
music: RF Online theme song since I have the game updating at the moment
 
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Oh how quickly a mood can change...  
12:03am 16/10/2007
 
 
Dazza Angel
I love The Crow... I just fucking love The Crow...

So I finely got to see the 3ed movie... and it's put me in such a mood... I love it when I feel this way... I just wish I had someone to share it with... It's wonderful...

Star... be glad your not on right now... You don't need to see this til you can really see it.

I feel like I could jump out the window and fly!

And I've had such a day... Such a day...
My sister promised to lend me money. The money I need to do what I really want the most. Isn't it all just wonderful?

See this is what you can really call a mood change...
mood: predatory predatory
music: Tokio Hotel Music
 
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Thoughts from the darkness of my being...  
04:29am 15/10/2007
 
 
Dazza Angel
Life sucks... It seriusly does...
I go to bed at night just wishing I didn't wake up in the morning...
I have soo much on my mind and no one to talk to about it. Even if I had someone who would listen I wouldn't be able to explain it so they could understand.

I don't know... I just don't want to go on like this... This isn't what I want... Maybe if I'd known what I wanted earlier in my life things would have been diffrent... but they're not.

I've only just discovered what I wanted during the last few years and none of thoes things are things I can do from here. I need to get money for all of thoes things and have nowhere to get them. So I comfort myself with the few things I can have... It makes me happy for a while but it never lasts... Because it's not my passion.

I don't know how to move on from where I am now... and I can't get the help I'm so desperatly screaming for... It seems I speak a completly diffrent language than everyone else on earth.

Why can't I just... Why? I know what I want so why does it have to be so hard?

The darkness of a night kissed window
The wetness of a unseen teardrop
The sadness of a forgotten heart
The deepth of a love I can't forget...

The breathless whisper of your name
The restless longing of a shattered soul
The soundless cry of agogy
The words I just don't know how to say...
mood: distressed distressed
 
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I hate being dissapointed...  
08:31pm 21/06/2007
 
 
Dazza Angel
I fucking hate being here at times!
People always make plans over my head... no one ever tells me anything or askes me what I want. No one fucking cares what I want!

Well you know what... They can go screw themselves! I just don't care anymore!
They deffently shouldn't expect me comming home often ones I manage to get out of here... Then I can do as I want and I won't have anyone ruining it all for me!

Yes I'm crying... I'm just so frustrated and annoyed right now. Why couldn't they just have waited a half an hour to an hour so I could have done what I wanted too? Would it have killed them to wait? If they'd just given me a warning I could have done what I wanted earlier but no one ever cares to tell me anything!

And then my mom has the nerve to get mad at me for being upset... saying that I'm not leaving room for them... I'm the one who dosn't have any room here! Is it such a strange thing that I get upset when ones again I'm left behind and dosn't get what I want because they never think of me?

I've just had enough!
mood: disappointed disappointed
 
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I want the arcade damnit!  
12:34am 31/12/2006
 
 
Dazza Angel
I think my family is trying to get me drunk...

Last year on my sisters birthday we went bowling... So we did that this year too. It was okay really... Exept for some reason my sisters boyfriend was suddently in a hurry to go home so we missed the best part... Which has left me feeling rather dissapointed... It's no fun if we miss the best part... I like thoes little mini games in the arcade and I'm dissapointed I didn't get to play them now that we were there... They're the best part damnit!
*Sighs* Sorta ruined the whole thing for me...

Anyway... so we had these little shot things... I dun know exatly what it was... but my sister said it was Vodka and slush ice... Something about you can win em... Anyway... They tasted okay... and usely I dun like alcohold. I just don't like the taste of it. So when my family found out I didn't mind this they were all like. "Here have one more!" ... But I've already had 2... "Well you're not driving so here!" Gee... I've never had anything like that befor... But... I don't feel any diffrent than normal... So I guess I'm not drunk. Whee for that ^.^

But yeah... the whole missing out on the arcade made me sad...
mood: disappointed disappointed
music: None at the moment...
 
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*Giggles* Funny stuff!  
12:08am 18/12/2006
 
 
Dazza Angel
But... You forced it last time and it felt soo good...

Completly out of context but it's still funny! *giggles*

Just heard it on Keiichi.net on a little convasation about Yaoi... betwin two guys...

I'm too easily amused some times!!
mood: amused amused
music: Stuff on Keiichi.net Radio
 
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Birthday yay!  
10:51pm 16/12/2006
 
 
Dazza Angel
Stary called me Stary called me Stary called me Stary called me!!

Just had to get that out! *Bounces*
This has gotta be like the best birthday ever!!
mood: ecstatic ecstatic
music: Sounds of Home Alone running in the background o.o'
 
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Random christmas adventure and love songs  
07:40pm 02/12/2006
 
 
Dazza Angel
Wow... It's like over a year since I last wrote anything in this thing... Maybe it's about time I start using it again huh...?

Ended up in a bit of a christmas fairy tale today...
I went shopping with my sister... and suddently she discovered she'd lost her wallet. We went looking for it but with no luck. Finely we desided to go to the police station. We where just leaving there when a christmas angel showed up with the wallet. And elderly lady had found it and was heading to the police station with it.
Honestly I think she was too hooked on asking for a reward since there was quite a lot of money in that wallet. But thoes were for bills so we didn't really have alot to give her. Still my sister got her wallet back and all the money was still in it. So I'll call her a christmas angel still. *Nods*

Hmm... Anyway... something new that's happend within this year... There's really only one thing really worth wrighting down...
I fell inlove... I have no clue when it happend... or how it happend... But when she told me she thought she was inlove with me... There was no doupt in my heart that I loved her too.
Yes... Her... My Stary...
Honestly... It's frighteing... Very... Very frightening... I've never felt anything for a girl befor and my mind is having a bit of trouble understand it...
But my mind is just going to have to come to grips with it because my heart won't let go of her. I just love her too much.
She... is my everything... It's always her I think of... However long it takes... One day I know I'll get to cuddle up to her and just be with her.

Guess she's partly why I desided to start using my LJ again. She got her own. Dragon_Starfire.
And ofcause... seeing she had posted a link to the song she mentioned to me I had to go listen to it... Such a pretty song...
And Stary... Yes... It reminds me of you too...

Love you Stary *Kisses*
mood: peaceful peaceful
music: Avril Lavigne - Keep Holding on
 
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Whaa!! Be awhere of what you say in a radio chat chanel during a live show o.o'  
05:54am 28/04/2005
 
 
Dazza Angel
Um... Yeah... So...
I listen to Keiichi. Net radio. Quite fond of it too. Espichaly the live show on wensdays.

Anyway. This time they did this thing with this story...
Where you say some words and then put them in to the story.
Very funny and all... I think most of us where flat out laughing as it was read alowed. It endet up with some very hentai's lines.
One of them was about 'wearing your sword of Justice'.
So... someone was saying something in the lines of 'Look how I wear my sword of Justice' in the chat. and smart as I am I reply 'Oh! Can I touch your sword of justice?'
...
Ofcause my line is the one that's read alowd... on the live show... tottaly out of context.
WWWWAAAHHHH!!!!

I swear it took me a while to stop laughing after all of that.
But it was fun ^.^

... Umm... Other news... Well... New Anime opsession! Hunter x Hunter!
I've taken a likeing to alot of new animes and theres a few I want to check out... But Hunter x Hunter is the one that has the most of my attention at the moment. Espichaly the character Kurapika. He's so cool!!


Yeah. Anyway... That's it for now :D
mood: amused amused
music: Keiichi net radio!
 
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Just a few things...  
04:35am 03/01/2005
 
 
Dazza Angel
Well... Got though my birthday and christmas rather well this year ^.^
For ones I desidet not to get my hopes up and things turned out good.

I now own the full series of Fake mangas ^.^
I love Fake!
Such a cool story!
Next on my list will be getting the full series of Gravitation... I think O.o'
And I got a MP3 player for christmas. Yay!

I just gotta wright this down somewhere...
It's been driving me crazy for days!!

Been kinda OOCly RPing with Star on MSN.
Getting our characters in to more and more sexual situations until we started out right playing them having sex. Willingly and less willingly situations. From sweet caresses betwin lovers to wild and allmost violent sex encounters O.o'
I swear it's so freaking HOT!
I've been growing more and more restless and more and more needy during the last few days... I've been going further with myself than I ever have befor and what's scaring me is just how much I freaking love it!
Things I've been saying befor I will never do!
Now I'm allmost ready to beg someone to help me explore the new things I've leaned about myself...
I wanna get fucked hard, fast... and right freaking now!
And then tender and gently...

I need a boyfriend...
mood: horny horny
music: Keiichi net again.
 
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First love never forgotten.  
04:58pm 03/12/2004
 
 
Dazza Angel
Happy Birthday Zachary.
Even if you aren't here anymore
You'll always hold a very special place in my heart.
I love you.

-Mystic
mood: nostalgic nostalgic
 
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Vampire hunting! ... In a good way ^.^  
07:54pm 25/10/2004
 
 
Dazza Angel
Whoo!
So I finished the book the day after I bought it... *sighs*
Still havnet been able to find the rest in this contry O.o'
So I asked my onkel to by them for me online then I'll pay him :D
Good deal no? *giggles*
I'll get to own the full series of The Vampire Diaries!
Which are proberly something like my favorite books ever O.o'

And now I where at it I found this site.. a shine to my favorite The Vampire Diaries character! Stefan!
Yeah so it had this little compatability test... ofcause I had to take it.




The Stefan Compatibility Quiz



Fun ^.^

Oh and I found out something very cool!
My sisters boyfriend has some familie in Canada. Star lives in Canada... And they live close to each other!
So I might some day get the chance to go visit Star!
Wee :D
With all the things we have in common I'm sure we could wreak some havoc!
It is rather exiting :D
mood: okay okay
music: Diffrent stuff :D
 
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The Vampire Diaries... O.O'  
04:52pm 20/10/2004
 
 
Dazza Angel
Oh my Gods!
*Runs in flustered mindless circles around herself*
This is indredibal! Simply the best o.o'

Okay I'll try to explain ^.^

Many years ago I read the two first books in a series called The Vampire Diaries.
I abselutly loved thies books! Seriusly I kept borrowing them at the liberly to read them o.o'
I kept looking for them since then... Hopeing to get to read the last two books or maybe even own all 4!
I couldent find them anywhere though and eventualy I guess I kinda gave up...
Then today I missed my bus... So I had about an hour free in the city. I whent to look in a book store I often shop in and a book drew my attetnion. The Vampire Diaries. The 3ed in the series!
That book o.o' I was so shocked but happily surprised grapping the book of the shelf and going to ask for the others. I havent been able to find them anywhere...
But I bouth this one!
I've been pretty much lost in it all day.
It's been quite a while since a book last kept my attention this good!
I dun know how I managed to find it... It was as if I was drawn too o.o'
I mean if I hadent missed my bus who knew when I'd get time to actly go look in that store?
But so happy! *clings to book*
Now I just some how need to get a hold of the rest...
 
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Long awaited update O.o'??  
02:29am 18/10/2004
 
 
Dazza Angel
It's been so long since I last updated on the RP... o.o'
So much has happent that it's gonna be a very long post that I don't really have the paticense to write if I'm gonna tell it all in details...
So since no one reads it anyway and it's just something I do for my own fun I'm just gonna tell the basic's of it!
So here we go ^.^
Last we left off Kana had just discovered he might be blind for the rest of his life o.o'

At Rei's house Kana and Rei spend some time talking. Kana tells Rei he lost his family in a car crash and Rei say's he knows what that's like as he too lost his parents in a car crash. The two spend some time comforting each other knowing that they are not alone anymore... They have each other.
Even though none of them likes it they both knows that Kana has to go home. Since he can't see he lets Rei take him home only to bump in to Yukio right inside the house. Kana admits he is blind and Yukio sends Rei away in a cold angry tone befor demanding Kana tell's him about Rei. Kana refuces and Yukio carries him off to force him.
As Rei returns to his own home angry and worried he's attacked by Neo. Neo half drugs him though dosent do anything to hurt him. He only wants to tell Rei he'll be adopting him and wants Rei to accept. He basicly threatents Kana. Rei has no choice but to argee.

The next day when the two meet up at school Rei has brough Saber. He wants the dog to help Kana find his way though school when Rei can't be there. Kana a bit hesitantly accepts.
As they enter though Daikuro see's the two and realicing he's about the same hight as Rei, Has the same hair length and basicly could seem the same to someone who can't see he starts working on a plan.

Later that day Kana is sitting in a class room after the class has endet just waiting for Rei. A bunch of girls come barging in wanting to see the dog. They pretty much just pushes Kana away to get to Saber. Kana alows them too figuring the dog would enjoy the attention. He dosent know the girls where sent in there by Daikuro. The older boy is waiting right out side the door for Tai to show up. He needs Tai to convince Kana that he is Rei. Tai arrives quickly and they enter the class room as Tai pretends to be Kevin talking to Rei. Kana is a bit hesitant at first wondering why Rei isint speaking. Tai pretending to be Kevin says it's just because Rei is tired. Daikuro alowes Kana to touch him and feeling the long hair and realicing the boy infront of him is the right hight Kana has no reason to belive that this isint Rei. He wonders for a moment why the other boy has his hair lose though. Not wanting to wait any longer and not wanting to risk Kana realicing he's not Rei Daikuro kisses the blond. Kana is a bit surprised by the argessiveness in the action but thinking it is Rei kissing him he repays the kiss.
This is about the time where Rei show's up. He had been delayed by some boys wanting some basketball tips from Rei since he is the team captian. They had been sent by Tai on Daikuro's request though. Rei is horrified to see Kana kissing Daikuro. He gaspes out the Blonds name befor running off hurt. Kana is surprised to hear Rei's voice and realicing something is wrong tries to push the one kissing him away. Daikuro refuces to let Kana go though.
Saber having heared Rei shakes the girls off and starts growling as he see's Tai and Daikuro. The two run off but takes Kana with them.
Rei bumps in to Kevin and Jason and it dosent take long for him to realice that there was no way Kana would have kissed Daikuro if he had known. He takes off to go back but finds the class room emty. So he runs though the school searching for Tai, Daikuro and Kana.
Mean while Tai and Daikuro hid with Kana in a bathroom. They wait around there for a while until Daikuro manages to convince Tai to go get some rope. Ones Tai returns with the rope Daikuro ties Kana up and goes to hide the blond in a closet. They bump in to Rei but Tai distracts him while Daikuro hides Kana. As Rei notices Daikuro Tai plays on one of his weaknesses. Squeazing the one of Rei's hands that Neo had hurt in the past. Tai and Daikuro leaves Rei on the floor his hand in pain figuring they are done ther for now.
As Rei sits there though he hears a sound from the closet. Worried he goes to see what it is only to find Kana.
Kana is scared and sad. Knowing Rei had seen him kiss Daikuro he thinks Rei hates him and the way Daikuro had kidnapped him had puzzled him since the older boy had never done anything like that befor. Daikuro had allso remindet him alot of Yukio. Rei takes Kana in to his arms untying the blond and comforting him. Kana is relived that Rei isint mad at him. He accepts the other's comforting embrace and says he's sorry. He's feeling rather bad that he kissed Daikuro. Wanting to make it all better and help Kana Rei kisses the blond. This deffently makes Kana feel better as they two stay there in each others arms. They never notice the red haired boy passing though the hall. He seem's shocked at seeing Kana obvusly reconicing him from somewhere but hurries on.
Rei and Kana desides to skip the rest of school. Insted they go to Sem's store. Sem is happy to see them though surprised thinking they should be in school. He gets worried when he notices Kana isint looking at him. Rei realicing Kana dosent know how to tell the man Rei explains that Kana is blind. Sem is sad to hear this knowing Kana had been blind befor. Sem had been the one to look after Kana back then. He leads the two boys upstairs to his little appartment above the store.
Kana goes to the bathroom there borthered by the fact that he remembers the way just as he had learned it when he was blind befor. Worried Rei sits down on the couch. As an exuce for Kana's blindness he'd tried to take the blame on himself Saying Kana had been hurt because he had been trying to pick a fight. He wouldent mind if Sem blamed him since he allready blamed himself. Sem knows better than to belive Rei would pick a fight though. He manages to convince Rei to tell the truth though is horrified as Rei tells him about Yukio. Kana too is horrifed as he returns just in time to hear Rei tell his secret. Rei had promised him not to tell anyone...
Devistated because he broke Kana's trust Rei say's he's sorry and figuring Kana is mad at him leaves. He wants Saber to stay to take care of Kana though.
It takes Kana a moment to realice Rei is leaving. As he does though he wants to follow Rei not wanting the other boy to leave. Sem tries to stop him not wanting Kana to wander around alone when he's blind but desperate to stop Rei Kana dosent listen. He runs off to follow Rei. But running around blind is not a good idea. Kana forgets about the stairs leading down and is suprised as he losses footing falling down the stairs...
Sem is horrified not wanting to belive what had just happent. He goes to call an ambulance as Saber runs off to find Rei.

Meanwhile Rei had gone back to his home to find the prist from his ophance, Neo and his foster parents all there. He brakes down telling the prist everything.
As they are loading his things in to Neo's car to take to the mans place Saber show's up. Rei quickly realices something is wrong and just knows it's about Kana. He follows Saber back to the store.

Rei is in a state of panic as he enteres the store having seen the ambulance outside. He tries to get to Kana but Sem holds him back trying to calm him down. He tells Rei that Kana tried to follow him and he says he dosnet know how bad it is. He says though that the medics would proberly let Rei go with Kana in the ambulance if he calms down. Rei realices the man is right and managing to calm himself demands to go with Kana.

Rei stays by Kana's side refusing to leave. As Kana wakes up allmost a day later though he's a bit confused. He remember's his own words of asking Rei if he's dreaming and is suddently afried that his meeting Rei has only been a dream. He thinks he's back at the time when he had first woken up after the accident in which he had lost his family. He cries out for Rei in fear. Rei instatly places all his attention on Kana reasuring the blond that he is there. Kana relaxes as he realices everything hadent been a dream. He's happy to find Rei is really still there. The two talk for a bit. Kana can't clearly recall just what happent but he remembers Rei saying he'd leave and tells the other boy he never wants him to leave. Rei is happy to hear this and promises Kana he wount ever leave. He explains to Kana that he fell down the stairs and that he's been with him the hole time. Kana allso finds out Rei has his hair lose. He's sad he can't see that though. Rei reads one of the stories he's written for Kana and the two enjoys each others company despite Kana's pain. Sem comes to visit. He's brought the police though wanting Kana to tell them about Yukio. Kana refuces to. Rei tries to convince him to saying if Kana dosent he will. But Kana reminds him that he promised not to. Having allready broken the blonds trust ones Rei stays quite as Kana still refuces to tell the police anything. He sits up in the bed saying it must have been a mistake. The movement allmost causes him to pass out again though. Luckly Rei is by his side to keep him from getting hurt. The police officers there says theres nothing they can do if Kana wount tell them. So they leave. Kana tells Rei and Sem the reason he wount tell about Yukio is because he dosent want to hurt his foster parents. They are good people and he knows they'll be devistated if they found out Yukio wasent the perfect son everybody thinks he is. He say's he dident even want Rei and Sem to know about it. He makes them both promise not to tell anyone befor Sem leaves.
Kana askes Rei to lay with him in the bed as he restes and he actly manages to sleep some. He has a dream about finding a dragon who calls him his pheonix. As he's awake the docter enters. Kana has been rather lucky. He's gained a lot of bruises and a small concusion but nothing is broken. The docter say's how ever that the blow to the head has lessened his chances of ever getting to see again. Kana is abselutly stunned. Rei tries to reassure him that every thing will be okay but Kana is in an emotional state of shock. He's speaking calmy as he tries to comfort Rei knowing the other boy is crying. He can't deal with his own feelings at the moment so he ignores them completly. Rei how ever notices that Kana is emotionless and gets scared. He tells Kana not to pull away from him feeling like he is loosing the other. Kana tries to keep his feelings locked away but Rei's words manages to get though to him and he brakes down crying on Rei's shoulder.
As the two leave the hospital a little later he's again rather emotionless. A nurse gives Rei a note from someone who had stopped by. Kana askes who it was. Rei knowing it was Neo lies and say's it was Kevin. That isint a complete lie though as Kevin really had stopped by earlier. Makoto allso stops by but not being able to see him Kana dosent realice him. Makoto tells Kana he loves him befor running of hurt that Kana dident reconice him. He dident realice that Kana couldent see him. Shocked that the boy said he loved him Kana just wants to get away now. So Rei takes Kana with him as they leave the hospital.

...To be continued...

Blah this isint even half of it O.o'
But I need a brake from wrighting now *lol*
Oi Daikuro actly kidnapped Kana!
And Kana fell down the stairs!
And this is pretty much the last we'll really see of Makoto... Don't know where his player whent O.o'
I think me and Star scares the other players away because we post to much?
Meh... No mather we're having fun with the RP so it's all allright!
Also... I can't remmber if the incident with Sem and the police is befor or after Kana gets to sleep and dream... I think it's befor though...
I did pretty good on the dream though. Star though it was sweet :D

In none RP related new's...
I whent to germany with my sister, her boyfriend, his little brother and a friend of them.
We whent mostly to visit this Manga/Anime Store they knew there.
It was great! They had tons of things!
I managed to get a Wolf's Rain DVD pack!
I'm a bit confused though... It seems like all the episodes exept the last 3 are on there O.o'
That dosent make sence... I'll have to watch it to make sure though. Hopefully thier're all there.
The english subtitles have horribal grama though! And they changed the names of the characters in the subtitles.
It kinda ruins it a bit but of well... It's still a good series ^.^
I allso brought 4 mangas. K2 Kill Me Kiss Me.
I can't read it though... Since I can't read german *lol* I just fell in love with the art... It's abselutly beautiful!
I can't find much about it online either... I did find out though that it's a 5 book series (so im just missing one o.o') And that it's about a girl that convinces her pretty much identical cousin to change places with her so she can meet her idol model who she has a crush on. So basicly a romance involving cross dressing O.o'
I wish I could read it really... It seems like it's cute and funny and I really do love the art! Prettyness ^.^

Oh yeah! And I discovered the Yaoi Anime Fake too! It's so sweet and funny ^.^

Um... Yeah... think that's all I can come up with to tell about for now...
So I'll finish the RP updating later ^.^
mood: tired tired
music: Just whatever I put on the winamp list o.o'
 
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Water fights and too many drinks at games O.o'?  
11:59pm 23/09/2004
 
 
Dazza Angel
I was planing on an update for the ASR RP... But then I kinda got disteacted.
Endet up in a water fight with my sister, her boy and a friend of theres.... Indoors!!
We endet up kinda wet O.o' atleast my sisters friend and me got abeslutly soked... Ofcause only because he desidet to drag me in to the bathroom O.o'
So we'd desidet to play a game after we ate dinner. My sister, her boyfriend, thier friend, my mom's boy friend, my mom and me. Of cause they brough out drinks too and it actly endet up getting pretty damn confusing O.o' But we had fun!
Even I got two small shot glasses of.. eh.. something O.o'
But seeing as I've never had anything in the likes befor... well...
Ofcause then my sisters Boyfriend had to go and piss me off...
He becomes such an annoying jerk ones he has had a bit to drink >.<

So I'm not feeling all too good right now O.o'

But I'm thinking Star will be online soon. Then I'll be RPing and I'll proberly be fine in no time ^:^
Ofcaust thies means I don't have time to do the update O.o'
Oh well I'll just update more when I do do the update :D

Allso.. My black cat Jiji tried to eat my hand O.o'
I where giving him a treat and he just put both paws on my hand, claws digging in and bit down!
I was just staring at him like O.O' Until my mom got him to let go. I was shocked. Not like he had any reason to do that at all O.o'

Strangly but luckly enough he dident really leave any marks though ^.^

Oh well.. Guess I'll just sit around and wait for RP now then ^.^
mood: weird weird
music: Random animeish music o.o'
 
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OMG! Rei and Kana fans!  
07:49am 23/09/2004
 
 
Dazza Angel
It's amazing!
The RP with Rei and Kana actly has fans!

We where rping when suddently this girl pops in and say's she'd been watching the RP for a few days and just wanted to let us know she really enjoyed it and she though we should turn it in to a book... and then this other girl in the RP just whent and argeed with her.

We where like O.O' We have fans!
Rei and Kana has Fangirls!
It was so damn amazing and funny!

It's kinda nice knowing someone actly reads the RP...
Inspiring too ^:^
And we are wanting to make it comic form after all :D

Allso. Star (the girl who plays Rei for my Kana) Had another RP going which I just joined.
Here's the character I joined with.

Soka Suzaku:

http://img.photobucket.com/albums/0903/Dazza/Soka.jpg

Cool isint he?
He's inspired somewhat by Hisoka of Yami no Matsuie.
He too bares the mark of a curse and he has the same bright green eyes o.o'
Pretty Pretty o.o'
And ofcause I got the name Soka of Hisoka.^.^

Anyway. I'll update on the last few day's of Rei and Kana Romance/Drama later o.o'

It's so cool! We have fans!!
mood: surprised surprised
music: Soul Edge or Edge of Soul... I'm not really sure O.o'
 
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*fangirl squeal* !!!!  
06:03pm 20/09/2004
 
 
Dazza Angel
Okay... This is pretty much how the convasasion whent.

My mom: *coming in to my room* I think theres something on TV you'd like to see. Yu... something...
Me: O.O' What did you just say O.O'...!?
My mom: Yu.. something...
Me: *getting of my chair and storming by her*
My mom: *calling after me* It hasent started yet!
Me: *running though the house, up the stairs and slipping on the floor infront of the TV staring at Yu-Gi-Oh!

Yeah so now we got Yu-Gi-Oh on tv too!
The translations are horribal but that was to be expected... It sounds like they're just reading the lines and I think its the same few people putting the voices for all the characters.
But it's allways seemed like that with translated anime here O.o'

One thing though... In the manga they use the japanese names for the characters and in the anime they use the english language names... someone explain me the point of that O.o'?
Wouldent it be better to stick to using the same names for the characters?

Well either way that deffently hit the fangirl in me :D

Allso. The new cheep pencils I got are great!
So deffently the best I've ever used befor!
I love working with them o.o'

I've made two pictures using them so far.

First of one of Kana.
I wanted to dress him up in some pretty clothes and while I where at it I addet a Pheonix Aura to him. He's actly smiling in this one!
Wee ^.^ I guess Rei must be near huh?

http://img.photobucket.com/albums/0903/Dazza/PheonixKanaichi.jpg

Second a picture of Lucian!
My mute violinist character :D
My first attempt at drawing a violin and I gotta say I'm proud of how it turned out :D

http://img.photobucket.com/albums/0903/Dazza/LucianC.jpg

Yeah... no update on the RP yet though.
Star havent really been on so we havent been able to play much...
I'm hoping she'll be on tonight though ^.^
I need my Rei/Kana fix o.o'
mood: pleased pleased
music: In The Shadows - The Rasmus
 
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A update and something new!  
06:53pm 18/09/2004
 
 
Dazza Angel
Okay! Think I'm gonna start with the update ^.^
Warning for lots of depressed mushyness O.o'
This has seemed to turn in to a Romance/Drama thing but this seems to be some of the most depressing stuff yet.. It's fun to RP though ^.^

Rei is horrified at what happent. He runs to Kana's side only to find the blond boy passed out. He can't understand why Kana took the hit insted of him. He's angry at Yukio but manages to keep himself under controle knowing that he can't take on Yukio and his friends. He askes the man how he can hit Kana knowing the boy is his foster brother.
Yukio does not reply to Rei's quistion. The words made him realice that Rei knows what's going on betwin him and Kana. This only makes him more angry and he reaches out for Rei. One of his own friends stops him to let him know they are getting peoples attention how ever. Yukio not being one to make a screen in puplic tells Rei to stay away from Kana. He basicly threathens him.
Rei picks Kana of the ground and takes the uncontius boy to his own home. He lays him down on the couch and cleans the small wound Kana has gained befor waiting for him to wake. Rei is very worried.

Meanwhile Yukio returns home. He is very quiet and calm on the outside which is profe of just how angry he is. As he reaches the house he findes the flowers Makoto has sent Kana. Yukio's friends make a hasty retreat as they realice just how angry the man is. He thinks the flowers are from Rei and starts plotting how to get rid of the boy.

After a while Kana starts to wake up. Rei is relifed to see him wake and askes if he is all right. Kana dosent really reply. He seems surprised to hear Rei quistionly calling the boys name. He then askes Rei to confirm if he is dreaming or not.
This worries Rei. He tells Kana he's there and askes whats wrong as he reaches to place a hand on Kana's cheek. Kana seems surprised by the touch as if he hadent seen it comeing... which he hadent. He tells Rei he can't see...He looks scared.
Rei is surprised and scared to hear this. He desides to take Kana to the hospital and goes to call a taxi befor lifting Kana of the couch and leaves the house. Kana basicly clings to Rei as he feels the other lift him. In a whisper he askes what happent. Rei tells him he hit his head against the car. He belives this might be why Kana can't see. He adds that he hopes it's nothing serius befor saying he's sorry. Rei feels guilty because Kana had gotten hurt trying to protect him. Kana now remembers what happent. He wants to know if Rei is okay afried that Yukio might have hurt him after Kana had passed out. He can't understand why Rei say's he's sorry. Touching a hand to Rei's cheek he realices the other is crying. Rei tells Kana he's not hurt. He say's its his fault Kana got hurt and wants to know why Kana took the hit for him. He gets in the taxi keeping Kana on his lap and telling the driver to go to the hospital.
Kana denys that it's Rei's fault. He say's he couldent let Yukio hurt Rei because of him. He say's he should never have been with Rei but selfishly did anyway. Rei say's he dosent care if Yukio wants to hurt him. He say's he'll never leave Kana and in a slip of his thoughs call him his poor pheonix. He says he loves Kana. Kana feels a slight blush spreed over his face and can't help but smile a bit despite the situation. He admits he likes it when Rei calls him his pheonix. He then tells Rei that Yukio might do worse to hurt him than just beat him. He say's Yukio has contacts. He then goes on to telling Rei he has to tell him about Yukio sometime when they are alone. He dosen't like the idea of having to admit things but he wants to do it for Rei.
Rei accepts befor realicing they're at the hospital and leans over to see what he owes the taxi driver. He notes to the man he forgot to start the timer but the taxi driver tells him to just go in. Realicing the man had heard thier convasasion Rei blushing takes Kana in to the hospital. Kana isint sure what the convasasion was about but he gets the feeling he might need to rethink his distrust of people.
As Rei enters the two are quickly rushed to a room. As the docter checks out Kana he discovers the bruises on his body though Kana tells him as he had Sem and Rei that he was mugged. The doctor allso askes about the scars but Kana just tells him to check the hospital files knowing that would be in there. The man then leaves the two boys alone to go get the results of the tests he made Kana take to find out why he can't see. Both of the boys are rather uncomfetabal being in the hospital as they both have some very unpleasent memorys involving hospitals. Kana had refused to let go of Rei as the other boy is the only comfort he has and Rei was more than willing to stay. Kana askes Rei if the docter left. Rei nods befor remembering that Kana can't see it and goes to kiss the boys hand and replys that the docter did leave. Kana then reaches for Rei searching him out with his hand befor pulling him close in an embrace. Kana notices Rei seems uncomfetabal figuring it's proberly that slight empatic ability of his kicking in. Rei admits his uneasy not liking hospitals much as he's spent way to much time in them.
Kana wants to respond but befor he has a chance to someone else cuts in to thier convasasion.
Daikuro had been at the hospital too having his broken nose checked up. (Remember Kana broke Daikuro's nose when he had insulted Rei during the Fair?). He heard Rei's voice from the hall and finding it familiar had desidet to check it out. Seeing Rei he reconised him and entered the room wanting to know if Tai had gotten the better of Rei in a fight. Seeing Kana sitting on the bed in the room he realices that's not the case.
Kana reconising Daikuro's voice tells him to go away in a cold tone. Daikuro askes if Kana isint even going to look at him since he is the reason Daikuro is even there in the first place. He's trying to taunt the two boys. Rei getting slightly annoyed and knowing Kana is uncomfetabal askes Daikuro to leave in a polite but cold voice. Daikuro has no intension of leaving though. He's getting curius as he notes that there's something the two arent telling him. Rei in turn drops the polite tone and tells Daikuro to leave. He has allready held his temper back two times befor that day and is afried of snapping and doing something he might reget. Daikuro gets annoyed with that and askes Rei if he's threathing him. He starts to say something else but is interubted by Kana who has had enough now. Kana yells at Daikuro admitting that he is blind and tells the older boy to leave. Daikuro is stunned having never experianced Kana yell befor.He seems in disbelife. Rei touched by Kana's reaction graps the shocked Daikuro and pulls him out of the room where he pushes him against the wall. He repeats that Kana is blind and askes Daikuro to please just leave him alone as the boy is hurting. He then say's that he dosent know what he'll do if Daikuro tries to take advantage of that weakness so he shouldent try him. He finishes by telling Daikuro if he had to pester, bug or do anything else to anyone to go after him and just leave Kana alone. Daikuro still being stunned actly listens to Rei. That had been a pretty unexpected experiance for him.
As Rei returns to the room he stops right inside the door to calm down a bit. Kana however having been shocked by having to let go of Rei and then hear him leave the room askes if it's Rei returning. He says he is sorry and wants to know where Rei whent. Rei goes to him and reasures him he's back. He calls Kana his pheonix again as he hugs him to comfort him. He knows he would take on anything to protect Kana.
Kana relaxes one's Rei embraces him. He really just wants to get out of there now.
The doctor returns with the results of the tests. He says the reason Kana can't see is that the blow to his head had caused some blood to gather and press on the nerve. He however can't tell if the nerve is damanged and seeing as this is the second time Kana has an injury like this he can't say if Kana will ever be able to see again. (No I have no idea if this would actly work like this in real life. I don't have that kind of knowledge of injuries. But it seemed like a reasonable explantion for the RP.) Kana is in pure shock and just wants to leave now. Rei argees thanking the docter befor gathering the shocked Kana into his arms and leaves. He feels it would be his fault if Kana never regains his sight again.
Rei knows thatif Kana goes back to his home blind Yukio would most likely take advantage of it. He allso realices that Kana might get hurt since he can't see. He can't be there to protect him so he gets another idea. He askes Kana why Yukio don't like dogs. Confused on why Rei would think of something like that now Kana answeres that its because Yukio is somewhat alergic to animals. He say's its really only a problem when the man is around animals. He wants to know why Rei asked. As Rei gets in to the waiting Taxi with Kana he explains that he wants Kana to take Saber with him home. Knowing the dog would be able to protect Kana. Kana replys that they can't do that. He say's that Yukio would instantly call the vet to have the dog put to sleep. He say's Yukio would be more willing to do it just to hurt Rei. Shocked and hurt by the though of losing Saber Rei goes with another idea. He tells Kana he'll come pick him up at his room each day and drop him of there again later. He dosent care that Yukio threathened him. Kana how ever desparetly is against this. He askes Rei to please not give Yukio any more reason to hate him. He knows that just the fact that Yukio was willing to try and hit Rei in puplic meant that he was very angry and had allready develóped a hatred for the dakr haired boy. He tells Rei Yukio is heartless and say's he dosent know what Yukio can do. He then remembers what Rei had told him about Neo and he starts to ponder the simmilaritys and diffrences betwin Neo and Yukio. To him it seems like Neo is a easy to anger and rash person while Yukio is cold and manipulative. Rei is getting frustrated. He askes Kana what else he can do as he just wants to do something to help. He then remembers the docter had said this was the second time Kana has an injury like this. He askes if Yukio had been the reason of Kana going tempory blind befor. Kana replys that he dosent know what Rei can do. He says that was why he dident want Rei to know about it. Because there was nothing he could do. He say's Yukio was not the one responcibal last time as it had happent befor Kana had ever met the man. He says it had been a car accident. He is sorry that Rei has to be put though this for him saying he dosent need it. Rei says he dosent care about that and pulls Kana in to an embrace. He say's he just wants to make sure Kana is okay and happy. He again tells the other boy that he loves him and that that wount ever change. In concern he askes Kana if he wants to talk about the accident. Kana relaxes as Rei hugs him. He feels safe in Rei's arms so even though he shakes his head in reply he still replys that he'll tell Rei ones they are alone.
Rei accepts that reply and as the taxi arrives at the house he takes Kana inside. He however finds a note from a Father Terran. He is from the Orphanage Rei lived on. He had been by to check up on Rei and found out he lived in a closet. So he wants to come by and talk to Rei's foster parents to take him back to the orphanage. Rei is shocked by this not wanting to leave yet another foster home and not wanting to leave Kana. Kana notices something is wrong and not being able to see what is going on he askes Rei. He's afried that Neo might have stopped by. Rei lies though telling him it's nothing. He dosent want to tell Kana about this as he had promised both Kana and himself that he would never leave the other boy. He goes in and places Kana on the couch telling him he'll be right back as Saber jumps up to Kana. Kana isint sure he belives Rei but he accepts the explanation. Insted he pets Saber as he feels the waight on the couch of the dog jumping up there. He argees that he'll wait there for Rei...

...To be continued...

So sad... Poor Kana... *sniffles* It must be so scary for him... And if he knew Rei might be leaving him too... Ofcause he'd be happy to see Rei move out of the closet but... still...
Well.. Just gotta wait and see what happents.

In other news... I've got a new keyboard!
This one feels a bit diffrent to type on than the one I'm used to so it's gonna take a bit to get comfetabal with this one. But I kinda like it anyway ^.^
And I don't have to hit any of the keys on this one to make it work!
Allso I manged to get myself a copy of the 3 .hack game! So now I really just need the last one ^.^
I allso saw the new Final Fantasy in many of the stores. Ya know the one to go online. So I might get that at some point too... Don't have the money at the moment though O.o'
But yeah. It was a pretty intersting day O.o'
I think I've been RPing to much... Yes Kana was created with the side of me that distrustes others and is kinda lonely. But geez I've been going around thinking like him today O.o'
At somepoint I found myself going all day dreamy at the though of Rei O.o' And looking for clothes that Kana would like.
Weird huh O.o'?
mood: weird weird
music: Liminality - .hack
 
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And we got trouble again!  
02:53pm 17/09/2004
 
 
Dazza Angel
Gaia was giving trouble so we dident get to play so much *cries*
But there's still an update so its okay :D

Rei had searched most of the school for Kana when Kana exited the Library. He calls out Kana's name as he runs though the hall.
Kana kinda thinks he hears someone call his name but he's not sure. Thinking it might be Rei though he turns to run in the direction he though he heard it.
The two end up colliding as they pass a corner. Rei is worried about Kana as he keeps remembering the things Makoto said. Kana is worried about Rei because he hadent shown up where Kana had been waiting for him.
Kana still dosent know it was a set up by Makoto. He askes Rei where he was and why he dident show up. Rei tells Kana he hadent said he'd come and Kana proves his point by showing him the note he'd gotten. Rei shows Kana he got a note too and Kana thinks it's someone playing a joke on them. Rei however can now tell him it was Makoto. Kana still dosent understand though. He don't exatly like Makoto but he can't see why the boy would do something like this to them. However he does realice that Makoto had been lying to him when he pretendet to be surprised to see Kana in the libray.
Rei suddently gets worried if Makoto said something to Kana about him. After all the things the boy had said to Rei about Kana. So he has to ask.
Kana lets him know Makoto dident say anything. He tells Rei about the box though and how Makoto had left crying when he'd refused to take it. He is not happy at this point. He'd felt sorry for the boy when he had left just to find it had all been a trick. He then realices Rei had espichaly asked if Makoto had said anything about him and gets suspisios wanting to know what the boy had said to Rei.
Rei tells Kana how Makoto had asked what the two had togetter and asked him if he only wanted Kana for his body. This makes Kana mad and he wants to reasure Rei that he dosent think that way. But befor he has a chance to Rei askes a quistion that tottaly stuns him. Rei wants to know if Yukio ever did 'that' to Kana.
Kana is abselutly horiffied. With the things Rei had just mentioned that Makoto had said he dosent have to ask to know what the 'that' Rei is refering too is. He can't understand how Rei had found out and is terrifed that he did. He wants to deny it but he can't lie to Rei. Not after he promised Rei he'd tell him. So he looks away sad and deeply ashamed.
Rei was praying for Kana to deny it. However as Kana stays quiet and Rei looks at him he realices thats not gonna happen. He reaches out to embrace Kana telling him how sorry he is and that Kana dosent deserve something like that. He's crying as he hugs Kana comfortingly.
Kana curls up to Rei though it takes awhile befor he say's anything. As he does it's to ask Rei if he's discusted with him.
Rei tells him he could never be discusted with him. He says he loves Kana and that he wishes he could protect him.
Kana hides his face by Rei's neck. He feels abselutly drained but at the same time a bit better. Now he knows he's not alone anymore. If Rei can accept this about him Kana knows he wount leave him. He tells Rei it's not his fault. He say's he's sorry Rei found out. He hadent wanted him to know as it's not Rei's problem. He still thinks Rei has problems enough with Neo. He's afried that Rei might do something to try and protect him. He dosent want Rei to get hurt.
Rei say's he's glad he found out though. He really just wished there was something he could do but he realices that for now he can't do anything other than be there for Kana.
Kana says it was his own fault. He mentions something about having made Yukio mad. Rei tells him it wasent his fault. He again say's that Kana dosent deserve it.
Kana's demanor suddently changes. He pushes away from Rei and stands. He's acting pretty much like when Rei had first met him. Distant and calm. He tells Rei though shoudlet be sitting out there in the hall. Rei is confused as he too gets up. He can't understand why Kana changed like that and is afried it was something he said that had angered the other. He suggestes they go sit in the drama room.
Kana think's its better they go to class though. He can see Rei is worried all though he argees that they should go to class. Rei want's Kana to meet him by his locker after school though. Kana argees quietly...

Kana hadent really been paying attention in class after that. The reason he changed to be so cold to Rei was because he was hurting. He'd allways dealt with hurting by running away. In this case becoming distant and calm. Even though a part of him wants to run theres allso a part that wants Rei to know though. He know's Rei cares for him and desides he'll tell him. He just dosent know how as it's something he'd really rather not think of.
He goes to meet Rei by his locker only to find the other dropping the papers he's holding. He helps Rei pick them up and Rei puts them in a binder befor asking Kana to hold it while he get's ready to go. Kana askes what the papers are and Rei tells him it's a part of a novel he's wrighting. As they exit the school Kana wants to know if Rei would let him read it. Rei starts argeeing only to get worried as Kana goes quiet again. He turns to find out why. Kana has spotted Yukio by the school. The older male is standing by his car talking to some friends. He's looking rather happy and calm though as he spots Kana he waves him over.

Meanwhile Makoto goes to a flower shop. He wants to send Kana a dusin lavender roses. He allso has some roses sent to somewhere else. (I have no idea where but im guessing the hospital?)

Rei is angry to see Yukio there. He wants to protect Kana but Kana sadly askes him to leave. Rei is not happy about it. He wants to stay by Kana but respectes Kana's wishes. He gives Kana his mobile phone and askes him to call him later to let him know he's allright. He then forces himself to walk away as Kana turns to walk to Yukio.
Yukio how ever quickly reveals that he's angry. He saw Re i with Kana and seems to belive there's more betwin them than just friendship. He graps Kana discrettly as he gets close enough but the grip hurts Kana and he loses his grip on the mobile phone Rei gave him. It falls to the ground.
Rei realices Kana still has his binder with his novel. So he turns to go back only to notice that Kana is being hurt. He still wants to respect Kana's wishes but is having trouble controling his temper.
Yukio had some friends with him who are trying to block out what is happening from any curius eyes. Yukio is not usely one to cause a screen in puplic but he is angry. He notices the binder in Kana's arms and takes it from him thinking its a pressent from Rei. Kana tells him it's not his and wants to give it back. Yukio say's that Rei can come and get it back himself. Which is exatly what Rei is doing. He forces himself to stay calm as he askes Yukio for the binder back. Yukio pushes Kana behind him and holds the binder out for Rei telling him to take it. Kana is horrifed though knowing Yukio is up to something.
As Rei reaches for the binder and graps it Yukio raises his hand to hit him. He wants to punishs Rei for being with Kana and to punish Kana for forgetting his place. Yukio belives Kana to be his and wants to get Rei out of the way. Kana realicing what's going on pushes Rei out of the way. He takes the hit himself and falls against the car the side of his head hitting against the car hard enough to knock him out...

... To be continued.

Wow guess even though we dident get to play as much it's still quite a piece of wrighting O.o'

Atleast we had MSN to play on while Gaia was being wierd and not letting us play there.
That RP is going pretty intersting too.
Daikuro and Tai is doing a better job at trying to split Rei and Kana up than Makoto was in the Gaia one.
Ofcause Rei and Kana only just met each other on the MSN one so it should be easier...
It's kinda fun getting to play Tai and Daikuro interacting too though as they plan to get Rei and Kana...
Rei and Kana will come back strong though!
Well they are the heros in the story after all... ^.^

Oh and on the Alundra thing.
I actly couldent remember how I got though the place he'd gotten too O.o'
So I made my sister go check GamesFAQ for him!
Though ones he got through I think I kinda remember again O.o'
But geez it has been a while since I played it O.o'

Oh well... Atleast I'm having fun ^.^
mood: relaxed relaxed
music: .hack, Wolf's Rain and a few other songs from things o.o'
 
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And the Romance is still going...  
04:15pm 16/09/2004
 
 
Dazza Angel
Wow.. All that RP and barely anything happent!
Well it was still fun ^.^

And I got to controle Rei!
Gah that was scary o.o' Seriusly scary o.o'
I hope I hit his personality atleast pretty much okay >.<

Okay on to the summary!

Rei is surprised to hear Kana's scream/yell. He then realices he told Saber to keep him in the bathroom and remembers the dog can be outright scary when it wants too. Feeling to beat up to walk he calls the dog to him and calls to Kana saying he can come up now. Kana runs to Rei worried only getting even more worried when he sees him sitting on the floor by the door. Rei admits to him that Neo was there and Kana helps him to go sit on the couch. He thinks Rei should go to the hospital but Rei refuces.
Insted Kana goes to get some ice for Rei's injuries. In the kitchen Kana desides he needs some fresh air to clear his mind. Seeing the rain has stoped and loving the feel of cool night air after rain he opens the window a bit and leans against it to relax a few moments while resting his hurt ankel.
Neo is still outside though! He spots Kana by the window and gets abselutly pissed off realicing Rei was hiding him from him. He startes towards the house wanting to hurt Rei but somewhere along the way his 'good side' takes over and he runs off to avoid hurting Rei.
Seeing something move outside Kana gets a bit worried. He figures it's just a cat but he's still so uneasy he pulls back and closes the window. He gets the ice and something to clean up a cut Neo left on Rei's cheek. (Wow they are both getting kinda beat up by now arent they?).
As he returns to the living room he finds Rei to be asleep. He gets worried when he hears him talking/screaming in his sleep though. He's calling out to Neo telling him to stop and saying he's sorry. He tells him not to hurt Saber. Worried Kana tries to wake Rei up gently but Rei only turns away from him caught up in the dream. So Kana changes tactics. He lays down by Rei on the couch wrapping his arms around him and whispers comforting things in his ear.
Rei wakes up though still caught in his dream dosent realice Kana is there. The posision they're in leaves him feeling trapped and he only gets more scared. Kana realicing this tries to move off him but only ends up falling on the floor. At this point Rei has realiced It's Kana and in his attempt to avoid Kana falling he ends up falling over Kana himself.
Rei is worried if he'd said something while dreaming. Kana confirms he did and askes if he wants to talk about it. Rei tells him he had a dream of the time when Neo had caught him talking to his two friends Jason and Kevin. Neo had beat both him and Saber with a bat. He says that Saber had allmost died back then. Kana is horrified. He askes Rei if he can't go to the police with this and wants to know if that was what had happent to Rei's hand. Rei say's he tried going to the police ones but they dident belive him. He then goes on to telling Kana the story of what happent to his hand. Neo had heard him playing a bit of his 'mothers song' The melodie Rei always played because it had been his mothers favorite and it made Rei feel close to her even though she wasent with him anymore. He stopped as he noticed Neo was there and refuced to play it again when Neo asked him to. He told Neo he'd only play the song for someone special and he'd realiced Neo wasent that special person. In a rage Neo had smashed Rei's hand. Kana is even more horrifed than he was befor. He hugs Rei as he tells him he's sorry something like that had to happen to him. He say's he's glad Rei finely managed to play again and then realices Rei had told him the song they played togetter in the store was his mothers song. Rei tells Kana it's okay. He admits that was the song and tells Kana its special to him because playing it makes him feel closer to his mother. He says he feels he owes Kana a lot for getting him to play again. Smiling at Rei Kana says he dosent owe him anything. It was Rei who had come to Kana and saved Kana from his own lonelyness and fear. If it hadent been for Rei the two of them would never have been togetter. He then rememebers the Ice he and gotten and wants to help Rei with his bruises!
Rei is much better now though. Kana still wants to clean up Rei's wound though and as he does Rei admires him. Finishing up Kana resives a bandaid of Rei and fixes him all up!
Rei now notices that Kana has his hair down insted of in the normal pony tail. In a moment of affection he runs his hand though the blond locks and tells Kana he's beautifull. Kana however freezes in shock at the mention of being beautiful. He can't help the flood of memories, of the one who usely calls him beautiful, that fills his mind. Rei realicing he did something to make Kana react with such fear pulls back appoligising. He feels bad because Kana had done so much to make him feel better and then he goes and reminds the boy of his own problems. Kana snapes out of his stunned state claming that it's not Rei's fault. He tells Rei not to be sorry. He feels bad for reacting the way he did. When someone calls you beautiful you should be happy. Not react with fear. He just coudlent help it. He dosent like being called beautiful. He curls up to Rei as he speaks. Rei insistes that it was his fault and say's he wount ever do it again. Kana thinking he needs to explain to Rei tells him it's only because it's what 'he' calls him. Rei knows the 'he' Kana is talking about is Yukio. Kana's adopted brother. He wraps his arms comfortingly around the smaller blond boy as he lays down on the couch with him. Saber brings the two a blanket. He tells Kana he loves him and say's he'll always be there for him. Kana confirms that he loves Rei to kissing him and curling up to him feeling better in Rei's arms.
Now comfetabal and happy the two fall asleep on the couch togetter (Just awww! To cute! ^.^). Rei's foster parents return home seeing the two boy and goes to bed trying not to wake them.

...

Kana is the frist to wake up the next morning! It takes him a moment to realice where he is and who he is sleeping with. He feels happy though as he remembers what happent the evening befor and leans up to gently kiss Rei befor saying good morning to sit around humming. Being as happy as he dosent really realice he shiftes from humming to singing (Guess what he's singing! The Garden of Everything! I told you I'd get it in there somehow!). He dosent even realice Rei is awake until the black haired boy smiles and mentions how nice it is waking up like that surprising Kana with his words. The two share's a kiss befor going to get breakfeast befor they need to go to school. Rei remembers there's basketball tryouts and gets all exited. Kana notes to himself Rei is cute when he gets exited like that.

Meanwhile... Makoto goes to school starting his plan of how to get Kana away from Rei so he can have the blond himself.

...

At lunch Rei is all exited to go to the basketball tryouts. The coach tells him he dosent need too though as he's allready guarentied a place on the team. He however lets Rei play to show the others togetter with Jason Kevin and... Tai. Tai how ever quickly makes the game in to a 1 on 1 match with Rei. Rei however kicks his ass. (Go Rei!) Kana arives just in time to catch the end of the game and see Tai storm out. He was a bit worried about Rei's ribs but the other seeemed to be fine. Busy playing Rei dosent see Kana arrive. Kevin and Jason does though and alow Rei to show off a bit befor the coach sends them to get changed because they're distracting the others with thier awesom playing.
Kana is about to go to Rei as a girl walks up to him handing him a note. The note say's to meet Rei in the libery. Kana dosent really get why Rei would send him a note but since the girl had called him Kana he figured it must have been from Rei since pretty much everybody else at school calls him Kanaichi. He has no idea the note was from Makoto.
Kevin and Jason is puzzled to see Kana leave. So they follow him.
Rei returns from the changing room surprised that Kevin and Jason is gone. A boy walks up to him and hands him a note saying to meet Kana in the bathroom. Rei dosnet really understand why Kana would want to meet him there when the blond knew he would be in the gym. He however still goes to the Bathroom.
It's not Kana that meets him there though but Makoto. Makoto corners him asking him just what is betwin him and Kana. Rei refuces to tell him stating it's none of his buisness. Makoto isint about to give up though. He askes Rei if he really care's for Kana or just wants his body. Outraged Rei says he loves Kana. Makoto then goes on to asking Rei if he dosent fantasize about Kana. He actly gets rather dicptrive asking Rei if he dosent just want to touch Kana, hear him moan, feel his body under himself and hear him call his name in pleasure. He gets rather close and touchy to Rei while he speaks. He then says that Rei must know he woudlent be Kana's first (Gah damn school rumors!). Rei pushes Makoto away starting to get rather annoyed by now. He say's he dosent care about that and that it's none of Makoto's buisness. Makoto is getting dissapointed that Rei isint reacting how he had wanted him too. Rei though knows Kana dosent really hang around other people so he can pretty much figure that what Makoto is saying is lies. He askes where the other is going with this starting to get the feeling that Kana isint comming like the note said. Makoto pushes Rei against the wall of the bathroom hard telling him to watch his back or someone might get hurt. Rei's ribs hurts betting pushed like that but his temper is getting close to snapping. At this moment the only thing holding him back is the knowledge that if he gets in a fight he riskes getting sent away and if that happents he wount see Kana again. He wants to know just who it is Makoto is threathening. Makoto replys he'd never hurt Kana. He then smirking says he heard that Kana likes it rough (Thats just rule when you know that's just what Yukio is doing to Kana and how it hurts Kana! *cries*). This abselutly pisses Rei off. He tells Makoto to get out of there the look on his face clearly showing this is his last warning. He's having trouble not hitting Makoto by now. Makoto having hit something that pissed Rei off feels satisfied with himself and leaves to go find Kana in the libery. Rei takes a moment to calm himself down realicing now that the note was deffently not from Kana. He then leaves to go search for the blond.

Meanwhile Kana is waiting in the libery. He'd checking out the books and starting to get kind of worried about Rei who still havent showed up.
Makoto enters watching Kana for a bit befor walking up to him and greeting him pretending he's surprised to see him. He askes if Kana likes to read too. Kana isint exatly happy to see Makoto. He confirms somewhat cold but politely that he does like to read. Makoto notices Kana's cold tone. He askes if the blond is mad at him. He ones again appoligies for scareing Kana the day befor and says he dosnet want Kana to hate him cause he likes him. Frowning Kana say's he's not mad. Just waiting for someone. He is however more intersted in the books than Makoto. The others pressence makes him uncomfetabal. Aproching Kana again Makoto holds out a small box to him (which Makoto's player says held a necklace of a star with a gold chain.). He wants Kana to take it saying its to say he's sorry. Kana however is not used to getting gifts like that. Espichaly from someone he dosent know. He's used to being the outcast that everyone avoids so the gesture awaken's his paranoid side as he watches Makoto with suspision and kind of freaked out (Me being freaked out too seeing as im whereing a necklace on a silverish chain with a star on it o.o'). He wants to know why Makoto wants to give him this. Makoto repeats that it's to say he's sorry and that he wants to be Kana's friend. He dosent understand why Kana wount take it (And Makoto's player get a bit freaked as I mention my necklace o.o'). Kana still refuces to take the gift though. He can't understand why Makoto wants to give him something when they barely know each other. He wants to know why Makoto wants to be his friend. It's not like Kana is the most popular guy in school. He says if its only because he reminds Makoto of his friend he should go be with that friend insted. Kana is uncomfetabal with the idea of someone wanting to be his friend just because he reminds them of someone else So the words end up sounding harsher than he had ment them. Makoto is very hurt by this. Kana notices Makoto is actly crying. Trying to appoligies he say's he can't buy him with gifts. He says he dosent understand what it is Makoto wants. Makoto again say's he just wanted to be Kana's friend befor trowing the box to the floor and running out hurt. He again mentions the name of this 'Aki'. Kana feels a bit bad for hurting the other but he just dosent understand Makoto. And the other does make him feel somewhat uncomfetabal. He notices the box on the floor and picks it up to see what it actly is. Seeing the necklace however just makes him more sure that Makoto only wants to be his friend because he reminds him of this 'Aki' person. He think's maybe 'Aki' was more than a friend to Makoto and he actly feels sorry for the boy.
Makoto leaves the school going to the hospital. He goes to see Aki who apperantly is in a coma after some kind of accident that Aki's father blames on Makoto.
Kana keeps the necklace intending to give it back to Makoto the next time he ses him. He though it looked expensive and he knows just leaving it there would only get it stolen. He then leaves the libery worried about Rei since he hasent showen up and Kana still dosent know Rei wasnet the one to send the note. He worries that maybe Rei is hurt somewhere because of his ribs, that Tai might have cornered him somewhere... or even worse... that Neo might have shown up...

... To be continued...!

Yeah... things are getting wierd now O.o' And I have a feeling Yukio might show up soon again...
Gah I still can't belive I got to play Rei O.o'
Star (Rei's player) Had to go and insted of just leaving things she asked me to finish. So yeah I did the last part of Rei's convasasion with Makoto.
I just hope I did it to her satisfaction.
Hmm... Oh well... Looking forward to seeing what Rei and Kana makes of this ^.^

Mean while on the MSN version of the RP its getitng Dirty O.o' Daikuro practicly tried to rape Kana making him close to panicing thinking of what Yukio does to him. Rei saved him though :D

We allso started another RP. This one called Lucid Hearts and takes place on a music Academy kinda place. I play Lucian who's a violinist. He can't speak though. It's quite a challange playing a character that can't speak but it's fun! Besides.. I have done it befor with my character Aubrey...
Star took the role of a character she named Tyson who plays the piano and well.. a few others joined allready ^.^
The meeting betwin Tyson and Lucian was kinda funny though. Tyson was a bit dense in understanding that Lucian can't speak. *lol* Lucian is a happy forgiving person though so he forgave Tyson. ^.^

It's all fun!

Well. I better go help out my sisters boyfriend with getting further in the game Alundra as I promised.
He's at a place I passed long ago after all ^.^
mood: relaxed relaxed
music: The Garden of Everything - Steve Conte/Sakamoto Maaya
 
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